This is for you.

This is for you, dear reader. Yes you the one who is reading what I have typed right know, I wanted to say this not for just anyone, but YOU!!

You are beautiful.

You are amazing.

You are treasured.

And you are loved.

So much so that the Lord God himself, the King of kings and Lord of lords, has given you the most precious gift anyone could ever give.

God gave you his precious son Jesus Christ.

At Christmas we don’t just celebrate Santa or the elves or presents.

But something far greater!

A gift that is given to all, something so beautiful that the devil himself can’t stand to hear His name.

JESUS!

He was born in a stable from a virgin Mary, and from his first breath God knew that he would one day breath his last breath on a cross dying for you and me! Dying through the worst death imaginable, he took our sins and put them on himself. For you!

And then miraculously rose again in three days, so that some day we may see his face, see his love and embrace that amazing gift God gave us numerous years ago.

So Merry CHRIST-MAS to you.

May all your Christmases be filled with love, hope and awesome presents!

Thank you for being a part of my life and reading these blogs.

I pray that God blesses each and every one of you!

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

No better friend, no better FATHER!

Last night I was having a bad night, I have been feeling really down lately so I was just sitting in my room talking with God.

Anyways, I read through me diary and realised how much pain I have been holding in my heart.

Page after page is written, I wish this would stop... I’m so sad... why does everyone have to change into nasty people?

After each sentence I was re-living the past and the pain.

So eventually I was crying to God saying, begging...

Help me please! I don’t want to hurt anymore, take away the pain! Please! I beg you; I don’t no how much more I can take! SAVE ME, from this pain.

After my shower I started to relax and feel much better, and I asked God to show me his love, something to help me a little.

So I went on my phone and went onto YouTube, and I typed in “God’s Love.”

A thing called ‘God’s love letter’ came up... at first I thought it would be some silly thing that someone made up... but no! It was and is amazingly beautiful, and I really want you to watch it!

I asked God for a little something, and he gave me everything! He is a GREAT GOD!

No matter how you are feeling or what road you are on at the moment, you will be blown away by God’s love!

I was so taken by all the loving father stuff and the verse...

“God will wipe away every tear from your eyes.” Revelations 21:3-4

So after I saw it, I posted it all over Facebook, something so beautiful shouldn’t be hidden!

I mean, would you hide a stunning rose under a basket? Just to keep it to yourself? So no one else can see its beauty?

Well I believe God’s miraculous love should be shared with the entire world!

Trust

Trust

Now there’s a big meaningful word for you.

Trust- something so strong that it’s what holds the bridges together between people’s hearts.

Yet so delicate that a single touch can shatter everything you worked so hard to build that trust on.

Now I have major trust issues... because of my childhood and just people from life in general...I can’t even close my eyes and let someone walk me around! I just can’t do it... maybe with someone extremely close to me, but I still can’t stand it.

And a part of my mistrust is that I don’t trust men at all! Part of me would like to because there not all bad. ;)

 But after years of hurt and disappointment from my dad... I have major issues with trusting men. My Dad has Asperger Syndrome and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder...this meant for a very long time I never felt loved or cared for by my Dad which broke a lot of trust.

 I used to think that men were either after something or out to hurt you, but actually there not all like that... unfortunately some are... but there are some really great guys out there that don’t have their hearts set on just something they want of yours or to leave pain and destruction.

But unfortunately the bottom line is that everyone is going to hurt you... they are human, some on purpose others by accident.

And you can’t put your full trust and faith in people without being hurt.

But there is someone who you can trust 100% and he will never ever hurt you!

God! I have been lucky enough to have a close relationship with God for nearly 15 years now. And I can PROMISE you that he won’t let you down!

With my walk with God I have had to learn the hard way on how to trust him 100%.

It is a hard thing to do... especially when you have been hurt time and time again from putting your trust in others.

But I can finally say I trust him 100%, yeah it took me 15 years to do so but hey, like I said trust is a very delicate thing.

So many times n the past I would put all my worries, fears and troubles in my hands and give them to God but I only gave 60% of them because I was having such a hard time in trusting him... I know I can trust him... I just always had this great fear of being let down... again!

And you know what? God has never ever let me down! Not once! And he never will, that’s pretty awesome. :)

This year I have finally giving all my fears, worries and troubles in my life about my past, present and especially future to him. And the feeling when God takes all those things from your hands is unbelievable, you feel free like those chains are broken. The weight you put on your own shoulders have been taken off and you can walk, jump and dance again. :)

But only if you put your full trust in him.

Give it a go, it’s so worth it. :)

   

The most important ingredients.

I’m not talking about strawberries and milk to make a great milkshake or brown sugar, milk, eggs and flour for a cake.

No, no... We are going far deeper than a slice of cake... but to the spirit and soul.

I strongly believe that the best ingredients ever are Hope, Faith and Prayer... Yep, just those three mixed together are what creates the world’s miracles!  

When making a cake... you need milk, eggs or water don’t you? Without it, it will just be powder... and that won’t work... I see the milk, eggs or water as the faith... it is an extremely important ingredient and without it, it won’t work!

Another part of a cake is the taste... you can’t eat a cake that tastes like nothing, gross! The flavour can be Hope... without vanilla essence, coco or icing the cake won’t work. Neither will a miracle if you don’t have hope.

And most importantly you need the flour... if you don’t have the flour; you won’t have a cake... and if you don’t have Pray, than you won’t have a miracle.

But we are only human; we can’t cook the mixture to rise to be a cake... I’m not Lava girl or Ben 10 (who can turn into the fire alien.) Us humans need an oven... the oven has the power to rise up the cake with its heat.

Well after you have added Hope, Faith and Pray... chuck it in the oven... give your mixture to God! He has the power to heat, mix and mash to create miracles!!

It says in the bible...

Matthew 17:20 He replied, “Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”

I believe this can defiantly happen. The mountain may not jump into another place, but perhaps if you pray with complete faith, the next day you hear on the news... (News music) “Breaking news... small earth quake not hurting anybody has caused a mountain to shift 20meters...” It could totally happen! And only through God.

My best friend Brie is actually in hospital right now with lupus, which has caused kidney failure... it’s pretty bad, if she had left it any longer she could have died! I thank God that she is ok, but if she needs a transplant... she may be in hospital for a long time!

But... I believe with a sprinkle of Hope... a cup of Faith and two cups of Prayer... and a hot oven (God) ;) she’ll make it through!! :)

What things in your life need these three very important ingredients?

All you have to do is close your eyes and pray to God about it.

He will be your oven!

And you can’t get a better oven then that. ;)

Moving on.

Well it’s near to finishing my state high school forever... it’s kind of scary but I can’t wait!  I’m sorry but school was so ridiculously hard for me.

Grade 11 I refused to change, and make choices that my friends I had grown up with decided to make, these choices didn’t agree with my Christian values and sensibility and so I moved on knowing the consequences I would have to take for doing the right thing.

People didn’t want to hang out with a Christian who has strong faith and love for her God as well as not supporting some of their choices. I was still there for others, but with some after I helped them with their problems... well I didn’t hear about them till next time they needed someone to talk to.

And then there were all the bullies! And when I stood up for myself and my beliefs.... far out I might as well have committed a murder! The hog wash I got for doing the right thing, CRICKEY!!

On top of that some teachers were unsupportive and really didn’t seem to care, which didn’t help with some of the situations I was in.

Made new friends...lost some...moved on...grew up...laughed...cried.

But through all that I kept my cool, I didn’t treat others badly because of the way I felt and my problems. I had to try so hard to do the right thing, be the kind of person that at the end of the day can look back and think, “Yes, I’m proud of the way I treated others today and held myself together.”

God really helped me of course, I don’t want to know what could have happened if I hadn’t listened to Him and kept doing the right thing.

True if I didn’t do the right thing it would have made my life so much easier. But if you play the game the way the world does, people will get hurt! And that’s no good, so I’m here to say...

You can do it!!

Keep your cool, and don’t be afraid to ask for help.

If you do the right thing and people are rude and disrespectful to you... well then they are missing out on a great person! :)

Besides it works out in the end. I thought no one noticed or cared, but they did and so many people commented on my graduation signing quilt saying how I am a beautiful person and to not change. WOW! :)

Well, if I haven’t changed with what I have been through already then I’m never going to change! :)

And neither should you if you are a good respectful person then please don’t change! Not for anyone or anything!

You are beautiful the way you are, don’t listen to the rubbish others may say.

Listen to God, He is always right, so wouldn’t it be a great idea to do what he says? :)

And when in doubt, think, WWJD (What would Jesus do?) ;)

My God.

I was at a presentation night last night... and the Principal was talking and wishing all the grade 12’s a great future, in his speech he said ... “may you go on with your friends, family and gods.”

And I perked up... gods? How many are there? But then again there are sooo many different religions and people with their own ‘gods.’ It’s pretty crazy... how are we suppose to know which one is real? Or if there is more than one god?

Well let me tell you how I know and truly believe that my God IS real :)

One: I am a Christian and Christianity is a choice... you’re not made to do it... it is your choice to follow Jesus.

Two: Christianity isn’t a religion... it’s a relationship... with who? Jesus Christ :D as Christians we believe in Jesus and God... Jesus is Gods son who was sent on this earth to save us from our sins and die on the cross... but rise again in three days.

Three: I can feel God... haha yeah yeah this might sound weird but read on. When you come to God Jesus comes into your heart (Not literally in full size!) but spiritually. :) And when I pray to him... Even though I cannot hear him I can feel him inside my heart. When there is something not quite right the same thing happens.

Four: The evidence is EVERYWHERE! Just step outside any time, day or night. Look at the animals... the amazing colours in a flower... the stars at night! Man there is so much miraculous wonders in this world that have clearly been created! Come on people!

Five: He loves us ALL! In the bible it tells us and shows us numerous stories of God’s love. To him we are unique, treasured and never ever a mistake... we all have a reason to live, He is the reason. He is also fair... the bible is full of stories of people that thought they were favoured by God and didn’t help others because they were ‘too good.’ Well God put them in their place!! Don’t you worry. He sees and knows all, so when you feel like you have done something good but nobody noticed or appreciated it, well God did and he will reward you. :)

That’s how I know my God is real. :)

But don’t take just my word for it. Grab a Christian bible and start reading... and listen... to your heart and God I guarantee that He has been waiting for you. :D

Rainy Days.

I love rainy days, I find them so relaxing, the world seems to stop for a moment. They stay in bed for that little bit longer, sit down to have their cup of tea, snuggle more, and even find time to talk.

Like at my work, the dog groomers, we never have a chance to sit and chat on a sunny beautiful day, we are so busy running around trying to get things done that we don’t stop and notice things, or have a conversation.

And the other day at work, no dogs turned up in the morning so some of us sat and chatted for a while. :) It’s amazing what things you can find out about a person just by chatting.

Another thing I love about the rain is it is a fixer, it takes out fires and helps start a fresh.

And it cleanses, don’t you notice how beautiful it smells and looks after it rains? The trees and bushes are greener and the flowers regain there luscious colour. :)

I think sometimes we personally need some rain in our lives, to fix some areas, and cleanse the unclean or just freshen us up. :)

What in your life needs cleansing?

Ask God to help, he will provide you with the right rain you need. :D

Next time you think that rain is a hazard, ruining your washing, making a mess in the house from your now squeaky shoes... think again.  ;)

No Favourites.

It’s funny how dogs see people as equals, like no human is better than the other. :)

For example...

I was in a grooming competition the other day, so there were groups of groomers everywhere, and each one of us had a little table with our dog on it.

Anyways I am happily clipping my beautiful dog, Mr. T :D and then I look up and BONDI VET is standing next to me saying “hi”! I almost dropped; he is so hot and famous!! I did say hi back but when I realised who he was I went red!

But I noticed that even tho everyone knew who he was and how important/ famous he is, the dog just smiled and wagged his tail at him like he was totally equal to us!

And I believe that God looks at us in the same way, I’m not saying he is a dog wagging his tail! Haha

I mean he see’s us all as equals, God doesn’t pick and choose some, he has chosen all of us!

Dogs also have that amazing gift of knowing a person, knowing what is in their hearts, good or bad.

And this is the same as God too, he definitely knows what is in our hearts, so I’m not saying that God thinks those who do horrible things are the same as those who dont, but I’m saying that he won’t ignore you because He is busy listening to someone who is more popular than you, if anything God listens out for that little quite voice that the world ignores. :)

I have recently come across a  lady that thinks God favours her above other people. And I feel sorry for her, because anyone that thinks like that is crazy, it says in the bible to humble yourself in front of the Lord (James 4:6) I mean we do not deserve him, come on people I’m sorry but we don’t deserve His miraculous love, we are all sinners! But yet He see’s past that and continues to love us because of what Jesus has done.

God does not and will not play favourites!

There’s this quote I heard once saying, “God has no grandchildren, only children.”

Haha I thought it was brilliant, because I mean come on we all know that the grandkids are a little bit more popular aren’t they? They get more lollies and cuddles :)

But with God you never have to worry about being left out, because he won’t do that. He blesses us in all different ways, and puts us through little tests in different ways also. :)

He loves us all the same and his eyes are equally set on us all. :D

Redirecting focus

Lately I have been feeling a little down, why? Because I’m chasing and trying to feel loved by earthly things.

My eyes have moved away from God and onto another, who can never satisfy me with the love I need like God can.

I always told myself I would never do it! I wouldn’t take my eyes of him and try to find love in earthly things. And because of this, I have been having emptiness inside my heart.

And I hadn’t realised or stopped to listen to that strong, loving voice, calling me home. The whole time God has been fighting for my attention, saying...

“Here I am Talitha!

All you need is me,

Is my love not enough for you?”

I’m kicking myself now for being so selfish! I was so distracted with trying to feel loved, that I had left behind that endless love that God has for me!

I then came up with this...

Lord, you are the air that I breath,

The sun of my life,

The moon of my night,

Lord you are all that I need. - Talitha ;)

Now I’m not saying that I will never get a boyfriend, I long for that, but God has bigger and better plans for my life, then I can ever imagine!

And he may bless me with an amazing boyfriend and one day husband, but for now, I must be patient and keep God my number one, that way, I can never go wrong! :D

What is God trying to say to you?

Are you listening?

Or still trying to fill that God given hole? ;)

S3X

Yes, today I will be talking to you about sex, I’m definitely not going to go on about how great it is, because 1. I haven’t done it yet and 2. I am going far deeper than just the physical.

Sex is something very special that should be shared only between a male in female that are in love, and in a very strong relationship, like marriage. :D

Like I always say, You can’t MAKE love, You should already BE in love!

Now I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, because it’s not! It’s beautiful, and should be treated like a treasure! And not a TOY!!

The world throws it around like pass the parcel, constantly telling you it’s ok, it’s only physical. When actually they are totally wrong, it’s far far deeper than just two bodies.

It is two people, becoming one. It’s extremely emotional and also physical, come on people, you are giving a huge part of yourself to another when you have sex.

And when you abuse it and don’t treat it with respect, you end up hurt, torn apart, and broken and that piece of you is gone forever.

With great power, comes great responsibility.

Some of you may be thinking, ‘but you’re a Christian, you think it’s wrong and so dose God.’

Well NO! I don’t think that at all, and nether does God, he created it, and he believes it is beautiful, especially when it is treated properly and in the right environment.

This is also why God created marriage, because sex is meant for two people, wanting to share a part of themselves with another that is precious and important to them.

I’ve heard so many say, ‘well how do I know if thier good or not before marriage if I don’t try it’, well people I will say it again :)

You can’t MAKE love, You should already BE in love!

It is so possible to be in love with out sex before marriage, sex is more a bonus and precious thing that you can do and share with your loved one when you are married, besides when you are married, you have the rest of your lives to practice it ;)  

Image

Now, here is something I always do when I and a guy don’t work out. I instantly look at myself and all my faults and say, well no wonder it didn’t work, or why would he like me? When I can’t spell, or do well in maths?

And then I hit myself for saying those things, and say, well, he is missing out! Haha, yeah that’s right because I’m great at...

Personally I think we all do this, don’t we? When someone doesn’t like us or the person were totally in love with hurts us or is with someone else, we come straight back to ourselves. And that’s just no fair on us is it?

But like I said in the love yourself blog...

Don’t always look at the negative, sure there will be things you’re not so good at, everyone has those, so instead look at the things your great at! Wright it down, make a list of all the things you are good at and you’re good quality’s...

And learn to love yourself! Who you are, there’s no one else like it ;)

Throughout life, you’re not going to be liked by EVERYONE, it just doesn’t happen that way, may not be your fault they don’t like you, it’s most likely that other persons own silliness.

But NEVER CHANGE YOURSELF! Just for another, if you’re a good person and you’re happy with the way you are, then don’t flipping change to suit the world, your friends, that girl or guy you like.

Unfortunately the world only really looks at the outside, when they are missing out on the best part of you, the heart!! That’s were all the good stuff is ;)

People are judgers, they judge others image, beliefs, lifestyles yet they can’t even see their own mistakes in their own lives! It’s pretty crazy.

But it’s all good, because the only person’s opinion that even matters, in the end, middle and beginning, is Gods!

And he looks at the heart, he doesn’t find you unattractive, or fat or ugly or to skinny, dur if he did he would have created you differently ;) he loves you for you! And that is pretty special.

And I strongly believe that this is how everyone should act, if someone is a nasty person then that’s a fine reason not talk to them very much, but if someone is kind, but unattractive then that is a terrible reason not to hang out with them.

Don’t think about image too much, yeah it’s important, but when you reach the stage of not hanging out with someone for stupid reasons like that, then I’m sorry but that is really shallow, and NOT cool.

Instead look at their heart, cause if you do that, it changes that person’s whole look in your eyes!!

How to see your life

When I see a piece of paper, I don’t see a blank page; I see a window of opportunity. A chance to make a masterpiece, something to write on, print on, draw on and make something from it :D

Maybe we should see life like that, not just a blank page but an opportunity to do great :)

Sometimes the page might already have stuff on it, well turn it over! Start again! It is possible.

No-one said life would be easy; whoever dose is pretty silly. But if you feel like you have ruined your life there is always a way to start again. No matter how messed up or confusing the words or scribble on the page are :)

Stop seeing life like a blank piece of paper or an already used life, turn it over! Start again :) Make it as bright and colourful, spontaneous as you wish and don’t forget to add in your loved ones! :)

Don’t be afraid to shine! Show your colours! Life’s to short, where’s the fun in only living half of your potential ;)

Love Yourself

Its a hard thing to do. There are the people that obviously love themselves too much, and those that hate themselves. Wears the balance?

We do everything we can to feel and look great so we can love ourselves, more makeup, tight clothes. We even look for it in relationships, which is a very dangerous thing to do, if you go into a relationship just for yourself, you will wreck it, the other person and yourself.

We thrive on complements and smiles from the opposite sex. We look in the mirror and see all the faults and dislikes we have on ourselves, forgetting that the world sees us as a hole and not just those little dislikes.

But there is a balance of where you can love yourself without being up yourself.

It took me a long time to do this, lol, it is important to love yourself, in a humble way of course, its healthy and good for you. But easier said than done!

It’s important to love yourself not only for your benefit but also others. Cause when you don’t love yourself it shows and that’s when you start hating yourself and others, and that’s no good!

Took me a good few years to ‘love’ myself, and my personality.

I would fight with myself manly over the hole; I don’t want to love myself because I’m scared I will become a cow and be up myself. haha

Well now that I do ‘love’ myself in a humble way I’m a better person, towards others and myself.

When you hate yourself, it really shows and you become a nasty person, so please do try!

The trick is humility! This means to be humble, like, if someone said

“You have nice eyes”,

You don’t say “yer I know”.

 You don’t put yourself down ether,

“No I hate them.”

You say

“Thank you” and mean it maybe even complement them back. :)

No one likes someone who constantly puts themselves down, it’s not nice.

Don’t always look at the negative, sure there will be things you’re not so good at, everyone has those, so instead look at the things your great at! Wright it down, make a list of all the things you are good at and your good quality’s. That’s what I did, it does help, and put it somewhere that you can get to it easily, mine is my book mark, and it really does help, trust me! :D

And learn to love yourself! Who you are, there’s no one else like it ;)

Depression

It’s a horrible thing that I believe everyone in there life will experience at lest once and on many different levels.

Yes sadly I have experienced it. I hated it!

It’s like your trapped in a black bubble that wont pop, and it gets tighter and tighter till you cant breath, it makes everything seem so much worse then what it really is!

Thankfully I didn’t have the server case of wanting to kill myself and hospital type. But I did feel and think, if I died, would anyone care?

I hated those thoughts, but they wouldn’t leave my heart and my mind!

I got depression at the end of last year in grade 11. It was a hard year for me, with school and friends. But also with me, when difficult hard times happen, I’m affected but it takes a while to really hit me, grade 6 was a very hard for me, from family issues that hit me hard!

I ust to get A’s and B’s in everything and I knew all my time tables, then the family issues happened and my grades dropped dramatically and I forgot all those stupid time tables! :/ yer yer sad I don’t know my time tables but, whatever, I no I’m not a math genies and I’m cool with that, its definitely not my courier choice uno ;)

Anyways, at the end of 2010 I feel out of a tree, was bear hugged, went on some carnival rides and broke my sternum. Yer have your little laugh, but it was extremely painful! And I couldn’t do anything! Not even pick up a newspaper, lol.

Anyway, just before that I started getting depression, then when the sternum was broken it got worse. Cause I couldn’t do exercise and be active which is one of the things that really helps depressed people. So I lay around in pain, and when I do that I think, and cause of the depression I thought more negatively.

And it just got worse and worse, I couldn’t see the light, I had a bad breakup with my friends and more family issues so I felt I had no one to talk to. I couldn’t see the light!

But God really helped me, I would cry and cry and beg him to save me, rescue me from this darkness!

And even though all my feelings and thoughts were black, I had faith and hope.

I just needed to hold on tighter to him. It felt like I kept falling, stuck in a hole I could never escape from.

Terrified that the light at the end of the tunnel was really a train!

Through all that I had to try my best to keep my eyes set on him, and have faith and pray.

Some days I just wanted to let everything go! I felt, worthless, useless, pathetic! But God kept reminding me of his wondrous love, and he was always there for me, even when I felt no love. He never let go of my hand. :)

And 1 year later, I finally popped that darn bubble! With God’s help and miraculous love! :)  

About a month ago, depression had lost its clutch on me and I was saved, it took so many tears, faith, hope, pray and time.

But I am finally free, and it’s a miracle. I ust to think that I could never escape! I still have my moments, but compared to what it ust to be, Darn I’m Happy! :D

I always knew, and no know that it helped me with my relationship with God and I have learnt so much and I am stronger!

There is always hope! And always a hand to hold :)

Giving

Now even though this may sound impossible and silly when I was little, (and I kinda still do) I thought that the government should give every family in their country about $100 each at Christmas. As a present :) If I were president I would! :D why not? They can just print of an extra sheet of money from the money making place and then give each family a present. I think it would be nice, but of course there is probably some logical reason not to, that I wouldn’t understand ;)

 And unfortunately that’s just not how people work anymore. No one gives unselfishly anymore, you either have to earn a gift or give them something back!

What has happened to people?

 Most just don’t give to others without being selfish.  If they do give, it’s to make themselves look better or because they want something just as valuable in return. And I find that very sad. :/

There is an amazing beauty and feeling when you give to another freely and unselfishly. Just to put a smile on their face and expect nothing back. :) For me, it makes my soul smile ;)

The feeling of giving someone a gift, not just an object but even things that a fair more special, is amazing, makes ya worm inside :D

But those feelings only really work when the receiver deserves it. It’s just not the same if they don’t or they don’t appreciate it!

But please, selfishness is so ugly! And I’m sorry but I really hate it. PLEASE DONT BE SELFISH! You’re not helping anyone, not even yourself if you are. :)

Try it, think of someone in your life that you think deserves something special, and give it to them :) it could be a hug, some flowers anything you feel that they need and deserve, go ahead and do it, Unselfishly! Watch as they smile, could be a family member, friend or a neighbour.

The feeling is unspeakable, just making someone else’s day :)

Wedding :)

Went to a lovely weeding today, twas lovely :) I haven’t been to a wedding in a very long time, and the last time I was at one, was when I still thought kissing was gross, lol. But this time it gave me warm fuzzes :) not only the wedding, but there hole story behind it :)

Any ways, there story is very cute and seems like it would more likely be in a movie. Becks car broke down on 2005 and her knight in shining armour, Timmy, came in his fuel truck to rescue her. :) Anyway there was a spark and they got to know each other.  And they both really liked each other, but Timmy wasn’t in the same place as Beck was spiritually, so they went their separate ways sadly.

Then they had no contact for four years, in 2009 Timmy was a much better man, and amazingly they got back into contact and stayed as good friends, Timmy had a few girls, and Beck had her guys, but none of them had that connection they wanted. But then one night, it hit Timmy, the lights came on as my grandpa said and they had a huge spark, and two years later on this very day, they got married. :)

It was a beautiful wedding, and I have never seen two people so happy, they really are IN love! And that is awesome.

As they were signing the registry there was an item two girls sang, and the words that stood out the most for me were...

“All I can give you, is yours to take... happily ever after is in your eyes.”

Was a very sweet song, and was very appropriate for these two people, who are now married :D

This is a beautiful and true love story, and marriage. Even in this world, it has showed me that there is true love and happiness, there story has given me hope. And widened my mind to more possibilities. :)

Men, Women and Respect

Why is it that we have some countries that respect and honour animals over people?

In some, cows are more sacred then women. And in others they worship a cat, yet treat other human beings horrifically simply cause they see themselves as a higher person.

Why is there not a country that respects and honours women?

Even though we live in the 20^th centenary, there are still men smashing women down emotionally and physically, to the point on no self worth. They are forced to do and wear things that they ether don’t feel comfortable in, or make them feel controlled.

Women are not objects, or pieces of meat! They are beautiful, emotional, sensitive and strong creatures, that need to feel loved. And that can often include feeling protected by a man.

Men and women are different not the same, physically and emotionally. Men have certain strengths, so do women. Neither are better than the other or worse.

By ourselves we are not complete, but together we are. When a mature and acceptable man and a lovely, respectful woman get together, they complete each other.  Women don’t have the same strengths as men, such as physical strength, which is why that strength should be used to help women, not hurt!

And men don’t have the same strengths as women, such as that feminine touch. A single soft kiss or touch from a lovely lady is unbelievable, and unspeakable. Women have that power to look into the eyes of another and say everything that needs to be said without a word.

There shouldn’t be one that is respected and honoured more than the other; it should be even, but in different ways.

Some women really do deserve every rose, every cuddle, but then again there are those that don’t even deserve mud. Some men deserve every kiss, but then there are those that don’t deserve life!

In the end we need to respect and honour each other, in the way we wish to be. If you find that right person, don’t you think they would deserve it?   

Tinker

This blog isn’t about that much, just need to express my feelings if that’s ok :)

Well, I’ll start at the beginning shall I :)

In grade 10, I did some work experience at a vet surgery.  In the middle of the week two adorable little 5 week old orphan kittens came in, they were abandoned by their mother and left on the side of the road, then brought in because one of them (tinker) was stood on. Anyways they were both so adorable and small; one of them (bell) just ate and ate! She was and still is a little fatty, and the other one (tink) would sit in the corner of the cage and rock, so cute!!

Anyways they didn’t have a home so I offered to look after them until we found them a home. Well guess what, they never found one so we kept the little angels ;) and we called them tinker and bell. Both my adorable little mysterious babies! :)

Anyways we’ve loved them and they’ve loved us for over two years now.

But unfortunately my little baby tinker jumped into the neighbour’s yard and was viciously milled by the dogs on the holidays. :(

All I remember is having this gut feeling that can’t be explained and knowing that something was wrong, I ran out to the deck, I saw our dog honey trying to get over the fence to protect tink, and then my brother jumping back over the fence with little tink in his arm, I could see from the deck she had a broken leg and was torn up.

I ran inside grabbed some clothes then ran to the car, my brother was holding tink in a towel. Her eyes were big and she had froth around her mouth. As I approached her she looked up at me and I kissed her on the head and said, “Everything is going to be ok.”

As we drove to the vets, I kept saying, “She will be ok.” “Its gona be fine.” I said it over and over trying to convince myself that it WILL be ok, even tho I had a strong feeling it wouldn’t be ok.

I kept looking back at tink in my brother’s arms, she was happy and comfortable to be in his arms even tho she was all torn up.

By the time we got there it was too late, she had slowly drifted off into a sleep she will never awake from.

 It’s hard even for me to type about it, but I’m feeling a little better :) I haven’t really spoken about it before till today, I was trying not to think about it too much cause it hurts. But last term I made an art piece and I took it home today and it had a picture of tink on it, and as I looked at it, it hit me. I talked a little about it to my friend sitting next to me, but I had to stop, uno?

But I can never forget it, that morning I was on the deck patting the dogs and she was there, so adorable, she was lying upside down playing and chewing on a piece of rope. Twas so cute! She was so young and alive! But it only took a few seconds for her to be gone, and that image of her with the rope sticks in my mind, she was so happy, :) and its good cause she had a very happy life, but it’s sad that it was taken away so quickly and early.

And that also got me thinking, life can be so short, so live it to the full! And spend each moment with your loved ones like it’s your last! :)

Beauty

What is beauty?

Is it a photograph of a model, in a soft black and white tinge that makes her cheeks look like soft snow, her hair falls softly onto her face, revealing her crystal eyes, that shine from the way the light perfectly sits on her face?

Maybe, but I see beauty as a far greater and more meaningful thing.

Beauty is not skin deep, it is far deeper!!

Beauty is the smile that you can’t get off your face because you are laughing too much. Beauty is when someone will do something for another completely and totally unselfishly, just for the other person.

Beauty is the feeling when you hangout with certain people in your life that you no don’t judge you, and you are completely and totally relaxed to just be yourself.

I’m like that with my little cousins and brother, when I’m with them time stops and we just have simple fun, I’m not thinking or worrying about being judged by the way I act and look.

The best times I’ve had with them is bush walking with our caps on, our hair free and wild, me with no makeup on, I’m wearing my daggy shorts, shoes and T-shirt. And even though I don’t look the best I can, I don’t care and those times I’ve spent with them, have been the best moments and times I have ever had.

And at Christmas, we go out on the street and we have a huge water fight with water guns :) and we have a ball!! And even though my mascara is running down my cheeks and foundation is dripping down my neck, I have never felt so beautiful!! I may not look it, but I felt it! :)

And that is what beauty is, it’s not the outside appearance or what you wear, it’s what you feel, and that smile you just can’t wipe of your face. :)

Fathers

Have you ever noticed that in most Disney movies, especially, the classic ones, there is often a father in the story, and not a mother? I have, In beauty and the beast, Cinderella, little mermaid, Pocahontas, all of these Disney movies plus more have a father in it and no mother, and the father always gives warm hugs and great advise.

I believe this is because in Disney movies, it is a touch of happiness and a fairy tale, there’s the love and happily ever after, plus the fathers being there. Which unfortunately is rare in our society.

Good fathers are so hard to find, there are the monster fathers that make their children play games they don’t want to play. And the ones that abandonee there families and the ones that hit, and bash their children! Where is the LOVE!?

  What has happened to some of the men in this world? That they do such horrific things to their own children! It makes no sense to me. And what hope is that giving to the next fathers of the world?

 But there are some men in the world that make excellent fathers! And if you have a great father, then for-good-ne-sake appreciate him!! It is something quite rare, and special. And it makes me pretty cranky when people don’t appreciate what they have. :)

Now my father has Asperger syndrome, which is something in his brain that stops him from being able to do certain things in life, and one of these is to show love, so I’ve never had that hole father daughter connection with my real dad that others might have with there’s, and I know that there are a lot of other people that feel the same way as me. Now I’m not complaining! Don’t get me wrong.

But I have had a close encounter with some older men in my life, and I definitely see them as a father figure. And I felt a special connection with them, in a daughter father way. :) I’ve never had those feelings before, it was magical. Lol, and it took me a week or two to figure out what I was really feeling. :)

But it is the same feeling that I have with God :), we are all his sons and daughters and he loves us dearly, he wants to be there for us with warm hugs and advise, he hates it when were hurt and upset and he cries when we cry.

Not to mention that he is the perfect father, earthly fathers can still hurt you, but God won’t. :)

Plus he’s the king of kings, so technically that makes me a princess! And that’s awesome :D  

Born this way?

Born this way?

Hmmm, actually, no. No-one is born the way they are, they become it.

Like, actually when you are born, you’re totally and completely innocent. You don’t have one wrong thought in your mind, you’re not thinking selfishly, you don’t know about murder and death, there are no swear words in your head, the world hasn’t perverted your mind yet.

Is that what life was meant to be like? Before the world scrunched it up and tried to squeeze every last good drop out of it? When we were young and innocent, was that a taste of what life was supposed to be, good, just and true?

Plus the way you were born is the way you are born, if you’re meant to be male, you’ll be born male, and if you’re meant to be female, you’ll be born female.

It’s not really until you reach your teens and little younger that you start to have bad thoughts and people try to find themselves (depending on your environment.)

The world gets inside everyone’s heads saying, “yes you can!” and it tells you it’s ok to do those things, because “you were born that way.” When actually more than likely you’re not! And you never were!

It’s your life experience and choices that make you who you are. Don’t listen to what the world wants you to do and be. Why don’t you just be the best kinda you! Listen to your heart and conscious, not the radio, TV and others.

If it feels wrong it most likely is, we weren’t given a conscious so we can practise not listening! :)

And if your still not sure then hangout with people that you know and feel do the right things, I’m not saying that you should be a goody goody two shoes all your life, where’s the fun in that!!

I’m talking about being wise about the much more important things in life, the ones when the choice you make is extremely important. Cause if you make the wrong discussion, it can really affect the rest of your life. :)

The choices you make today are very important! So be wise, and listen to your conscious, you weren’t born the way the world is telling you that you are! :)

The Past

Some say to forget about your past and move on.

Now I don’t agree with this, I believe that a person’s past is sacred, it is what makes people WHO they are.

I definitely know that without my past and what has happened in it, I wouldn’t be who I am today.

I’m not saying it’s easy, I’ve definitely had my moments when I’ve asked, “Why me?”

I now see how wrong I was. Because of my past, the good and the bad, it has made me, me.

But not just my past, also my choices!

Now I became a Christian, came to God, when I was three. Now that might sound odd, but I truly believe that it was meant to be. Cause if I hadn’t had God in my life, and the close relationship that we do have, MAN!! I would be pretty stuffed up; I don’t want to know who I could have been. :)

And because of my choices that I made with God, I am who I am now.

And I’m happy with that.

You hear of people who go through terrible times. And in the end it’s their choice on who they will become from it.

Some become amazing and inspirational people.

Then there’s others that fall down with their world and push everyone out. And it’s very sad, but I agree falling down and losing to hard times in life would be sooo much easier then standing up! Really would.

With my personality tho, I could never let that happen, I would feel weak! And I don’t want that ;) But in the back of my mind there’s always that option of giving up. It would be less work, but in the end, I want to be proud of myself and my choices! :)

So I say, remember your past, learn from it, and then move on :D

Words

Ahh words, they can be so great sometimes but other times they can really hurt.

I don’t know who wrote the song, “sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.” Lol yer, used to sing that in like grade 3 and 5, and even then I was thinking it was a lie. :)

Words can be great, if said at the right time and by a certain person. Wow, it’s amazing how they can just go straight through you and to your heart.

And then there’s those words that just tear you apart and can change people.

It’s funny (not really) that we are all flesh and blood humans, but yet some of the easiest things that just roll of our tongues can ether bring someone to great success and make there day, or rip them down into depression.

As people we really really need to be careful on what we say to others.

Like I said before, a single sentence can simply be the making or ending of another.

 This might sound crazy, but it’s true, deep down we all have had the amazing moments of the right words, and we have all had the ones that just sting!

Sometimes I feel like I would rather be physically hurt then emotionally, lol, I think I would be able to get over it quicker. :)

But not only do we need to watch what we say to others, we also need to do our best to not get hurt by certain words as well, which is hard!

As I leave you with this, ask yourselves...

Have I said all the right things today to others?

And what haven’t I said that needs saying? :)