Trust

Trust

Now there’s a big meaningful word for you.

Trust- something so strong that it’s what holds the bridges together between people’s hearts.

Yet so delicate that a single touch can shatter everything you worked so hard to build that trust on.

Now I have major trust issues... because of my childhood and just people from life in general...I can’t even close my eyes and let someone walk me around! I just can’t do it... maybe with someone extremely close to me, but I still can’t stand it.

And a part of my mistrust is that I don’t trust men at all! Part of me would like to because there not all bad. ;)

 But after years of hurt and disappointment from my dad... I have major issues with trusting men. My Dad has Asperger Syndrome and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder...this meant for a very long time I never felt loved or cared for by my Dad which broke a lot of trust.

 I used to think that men were either after something or out to hurt you, but actually there not all like that... unfortunately some are... but there are some really great guys out there that don’t have their hearts set on just something they want of yours or to leave pain and destruction.

But unfortunately the bottom line is that everyone is going to hurt you... they are human, some on purpose others by accident.

And you can’t put your full trust and faith in people without being hurt.

But there is someone who you can trust 100% and he will never ever hurt you!

God! I have been lucky enough to have a close relationship with God for nearly 15 years now. And I can PROMISE you that he won’t let you down!

With my walk with God I have had to learn the hard way on how to trust him 100%.

It is a hard thing to do... especially when you have been hurt time and time again from putting your trust in others.

But I can finally say I trust him 100%, yeah it took me 15 years to do so but hey, like I said trust is a very delicate thing.

So many times n the past I would put all my worries, fears and troubles in my hands and give them to God but I only gave 60% of them because I was having such a hard time in trusting him... I know I can trust him... I just always had this great fear of being let down... again!

And you know what? God has never ever let me down! Not once! And he never will, that’s pretty awesome. :)

This year I have finally giving all my fears, worries and troubles in my life about my past, present and especially future to him. And the feeling when God takes all those things from your hands is unbelievable, you feel free like those chains are broken. The weight you put on your own shoulders have been taken off and you can walk, jump and dance again. :)

But only if you put your full trust in him.

Give it a go, it’s so worth it. :)