I have been through a pretty hectic last couple of weeks; my life has just been turned upside down!
Every inch of my life feels like it has been falling apart. Friends, family and work! It’s just like seriously!?
But there is one very important part of my life that hasn’t flipped, and that is God!
Throughout the past couple of weeks I have had many emotional fights with myself. I have been trying so hard to see the positive side of all these situations, but I just couldn’t. Only God can do that for me.
And because of all these situations I have been going through, I have been having a hard time getting to sleep at night, just every time I closed my eyes, I couldn’t escape.
And let me tell you a secret... You just all light up at the word secret didn’t you? ;)
Well for a girl who never cries, I have been doing a LOT of crying!
For the past three nights I have just sobbed and reached out to God so greatly! It has been a while since I needed him so badly.
And like always this, strong, loving, merciful God has been my comfort and place to run to.
Now don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to vent or make you feel sorry for me, that’s the last thing I want!
And as you are all reading this you will have parts of your life that you are fighting through. No matter how big or small your situation or situations are, they are important and mostly important to God. All I want is to use my experience to help you!
One of the things I have learnt is to be honest with God. For a while I felt that I was drifting away from him, and I didn’t know why, till eventually one night I just cracked and I was completely honest with him. I knew what I needed to say, but I didn’t want to say it because I was so scared of being disrespectful, but after I was completely honest I felt close to him again. He wants to know our thoughts and feelings so that he can help, so be honest! Yet humble at the same time, He is very understanding.
Second thing, it is ok to be weak and have our weak moments, we are human and God totally gets that.
Psalm 103: 14-16
“For he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust. The life of mortals is like grass, they flourish like a flower of the field; the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.”
And don’t be a fool like me and afraid of crying, crying is not a weakness, but a sign of being strong for so long.
Thirdly, don’t be afraid to ask for help, hear is one thing I have huge troubles with, is asking for help. You don’t want people to think you are pathetic and needy so you just leave it, when actually God can work through these people to help you.
On one of the bad nights I was having, I was crying to God asking for help, he then gave me a name of a good friend. So quite late at night I sent a text to my friend saying I really needed a ‘pick me up’ bible verse to help me. This friend has no idea of what has been happening, but he sent through a bible verse, at first I thought I knew the verse and that it wouldn’t help me in this situation. But as I opened my bible, the pages flipped straight to the right chapter, then I knew straight away that this verse would help, I frantically search through the pages to...
Isaiah 41:10
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
When I read the words, “I am with you” I just cried... again!! Some may say that the bible is just printed letters, well no! It is far more than that, it is God’s word and words cannot describe how much I have needed His words!
As humans we can survive for a while, but without God, we will crack under the pressure. I have asked and needed help from God so many times and each time he has given me the fuel to go on.
Don’t be afraid to re-fuel.
God can handle it and will handle it, you just gotta have faith. :)
I pray that God will give you all the strength you need to carry on! xo.
When we are at the end of our rope, we are never at the end of our hope.
