Bring it on!

I would like to share my journey to come this year with you. I am anxious and afraid of what will be, but feel as though God has asked me to do this, so He will get me through it. 

Do I have you intrigued? Good. :)

All my life I have struggled with school work (studies), literacy and grammar. Plus many others. 

“It just isn’t my thing” I have always said. 

Well now God is telling me it kind of needs to be… I am undertaking a Post Graduate Diploma course to become an art and film and television teacher. Crazy idea… yes! Let me explain my troubles a little further.

Firstly I am a slow person, slow at walking, often the last one to get the joke, you know things like that. When I first started school I struggled a lot with completing tasks, and applying what the teacher just said in an activity, mind you my teacher was not very nice but thats another story. 

Later we found out that I had auditory processing disorder (APD), which describes the inability to process the meaning of sound. This does not mean that APD’s are deaf, we often can hear quite well, we just process what is heard in our brains differently than others. Which often in children leads to them not understanding and therefore not learning, which I found out at young age is very frustrating to teachers. APD’s also struggle to separate sounds, such as being able to hold a conversation or concentrate when there is loud background noise.

Thankfully in my primary school years I was taken a side from english and math classes to join with a small group of students who were a little slower at learning than others, and I praise those lovely ladies for the patience and kindness they showed me.

Later I was thrown into high school and all of a sudden, I had nothing, I was so lost, I had gone from lovely ladies helping me through my studies on a personal level to then being in a class full of teenagers and no face to face help.

Safe to say I struggled a lot in my first high school years, failing almost everything, gradually being placed into the lowest classes where thankfully I could follow. 

The only things I felt like I could do was the creative artistic work, and man did I do them well… top of most of my classes! I loved art class, wood work and photography, finally in a class where I knew what I was doing.

I know what you might be thinking, she is crazy for trying to become a teacher, how are you going to pass uni? How can you teach when you have APD?

Oh yes these questions run through my mind all the time. But like I said, God has gotten me here He will get me through, and I have a lot of work to do.

But why teaching? 

Passion and compassion.

I wish to provide a healthy and happy work environment for students where they can feel believed in and inspired to chase their creative dreams. The way my art teacher believed in me and helped me through my senior years.

I may not become the smartest teacher or the best, but as long as I care for the students, I know I am doing well.

Week one at uni has started and it is a massive work load full of wordy assignments that I know I will struggle with. 

Thankfully I have amazing friends and family who believe in me, even a God who believes in me, I just need to believe in myself, and there is half the struggle. 

“I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go…” Genesis 28:15

Well future year… bring it on!